haiix..
i know that my parents are doing this
for my own good..
when i was in primary school
they treat me like..
a diamond?never stress me
even during PSLE that time.
although my score was like
181 =.=".at that time i think
i put my parents down for never
get into express stream..
but at least i never get into NT stream
and they feel very happy for me.
cause maybe they think that
i already put my effort for it.
when i was sec 1,which is last year
i tell myself i must work very
hard to make my parents happy
with my results.
term 1 i get 1st in class!
my parents was very happy with me
and celebrated with me.
term 2 to term 3 my results drop quite
alot.but my parents didnt angry with me.
god bless term 4 i managed push up and get
3rd in class!although cant get into express
stream but my parents still felt happy for me.
this year sec 2..i wonder why my parents start
to compare me with my cousins..neighbours..
which they dont do that when i was in sec 1.
they never stress me up when i was in sec 1.
not i dont have tution,i already have!
they still want me go for more tutions..
they always think that i never study,everyday play..
but i really did study!did my best!
until yesterday..
my parents say this to me in car:
"why you never get good results?
make me lose face infront of my friends
why my friends their children can get good
results you cannot?why you so stupid?
everyday only know how to play.
can you grow up and think for us?
make us proud of you can?
you want to be like your sister?
your standard now already like
NT!"
that was what my parents say..
i cant believe parents will say
own children stupid?
thats what my parents told that
to me!make me feel very sad..
my brother was a manager..
then my parents look high on him.
me lehhs?they think i am died..
everything cares about my brother
and sister..
maybe my parents think that
they old enough already.
but need to care for them
more then me?
not saying they dont
care about me,
they care about me
when comes to results only..
my results good they happy
my results never get what they
want they only know how to
leture,scold,compare me with other people..
and EOY there is overseas learning
trip for me.my dad agree to let me go at first.
but after few days he changed his mind and
disagree?heard from my mum because of my results.
why got such things?now still not the end!still
got EOY exams i can work hard for it!..
then you know what?my mum dont want my
dad to angry..even wanted to give me money
in exchange of dont go for the overseas trip!
the overseas trip is to hong kong..and
hong kong is the country i wanted to go..
my dream to go to!!!how can i accept the money from
my mum in exchage of not going?and also not to make
my dad angry?my dad never ever spare a thought for me
thinking i never put him in my shoe to think..
but should be the other way round!he never put
himself in my shoe to think!!
is this what as parents should do?
parents should give encouragement rights?
not to look down on own children rights?..
nevermind i shall work hard for my EOY
exams and prove to them i am not stupid..